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This is for anyone who would still like to follow my journals. my life is pretty busy anymore so i don't update or follow much anymore, sorry if anyone feels they have been ignored. Take care.

Always,

 kitti

KALEB GOT APPROVED FOR HIS LEG BRACES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*happy dance* OMG i couldn't be happier right now!! First off at clinic today the dr said he wasn't sure if Kaleb even NEEDED the braces or not anymore. Then to top off my wonderful day it was the FASTEST clinic we've ever been to, just three hours. When i got home the letter for the braces was in the mail. i mean come on people days this good just don't happen often so i'm planning on enjoying every second of it. i got all good news from all the dr's, well all but one but she just scolding me about his eating habits (they aren't that bad but he does get some foods he shouldn't). We have the next clinic dates set up and the tests that will need to be done by then are all planned out. This is just too good. *really happy* Kaleb's urology dr is great and told me not to worry about Kaleb "down there" because he's fine. He did say that he wants to do bladder pressure tests in six months 'just to be sure' that Kaleb won't be likely to start having problems. One of the other dr's was kind enough to give me a guess on where Kaleb's SB is, he said L5 S1. If i remember right that is GREAT placement (ok there is no such thing but since he DOES have SB it's a good place for it to be). He told me that may not be the spot it IS at but that's about where and thats how Kaleb is acting. So i'm a very happy girl-child right now.

Raven's mom and dad called us today and we all talked. It was great hearing from them again. i worry about mom sometimes but, hey i love her so i can get away with some worry. Told dad about Kaleb's braces and he was happy about it.

On a sadder note i am no longer going to be posting in this journal. There are too many things being taken wrong and twisted to cause trouble so i will be moving to a new one and only those that post for the new one's addy will get it. i don't want to lose the friends i have on here but there are a few people (well only one really) that i don't want to see it anymore. Everyone take care and please either email me or post for the new addy. *hugs and kiss's*

Always,

 kitti aka Raveness

Last night Raven and i talked about something we've been putting off for a while now. He's most likely going back to RI (Polly you had NOTHING to do with it, you're just mean and need to stop reading this journal). He needs to finish his school stuff and to shut up his older sister. This chick is going to drive me mad.

Well my dragon has one wing now lol. i forgot about needing to get up early and let Blue start on the wings but i didn't even have time for one.... so now i have one full wing and will be taking a yellow jacket to keep me up during Kaleb's Spinia Bifida clinic.

We are hoping Raven can go with us to clinic because that would make things a ton easier for me and Kaleb. It's hard to keep a kid happy from noon to 8 at night without them leaving a small room or eating any "real" food. i HATE going to clinic because it is so hard on everyone (that is everyone but the Dr's). Well now i must pack the bags (yes more than one) for today to keep us all busy and happy.

"Stupid people are breeding..." A thought i can't get out of my head lately.

Always,

 kitti aka Raveness

Cyber Wild: *Gasp* There are mothers protecting their children as you walk past them and old men stare at you and shake their heads. You are the wild on of the scene. Hell, are you even in the scene? You could be Goth but you tend to pave your own way, you could be a Metal head or a Punk... no one knows for sure because you do your own thing and answer to no one and thats what makes people follow your lead. Everyone seems to remember you from somewhere so you're never alone for long. You have so many talents you can fix almost any problem, from a piercing gone bad to comforting a friend from a bad 'trip'. You have that tough sexiness that singles you out from the rest. Whether or not you feel mean on the inside may be a different thing. People look at you and think "yeah shes got her shit together". You look best when you show off your tattoos and piercings and nobody makes chunky boots and fishnet look quite as good as you do. Your motto is "I'll try anything as long as its for free"

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i think i might have helped Raven out a little bit last night. Lately he's been fighting with EVERYONE up in RI, and it's been upsetting to me. i don't want him giving up all his friends and family just to be with me! i want to find some kind of balance for everyone to be happy. So i talked to one of his ex girl friends and let him watch our convo, i didn't lie or hold back just b/c he was there. Now he knows how i feel and a lot of people back in RI feel. i don't want to be around him when he's mad or upset and Kaleb should never see that. i'm willing to help stop any of these fights and try to find a middle ground for everyone. i just have a bad feeling a lot of people up there hate me (mostly his family).

Now we have another problem, we can't get him his GED until next year, and until then he can't work but needs to be in school. WELL we can't get him in school without help from his parents and some other people are telling them lies. i just don't know how much i can take. i LOVE HIM, WHY WON'T ANYONE UNDERSTAND THIS?????

Kaleb is doing good. Monday we go to his SB clinic and then Tuesday we go to his ped to get a check up and shots. Wish us luck with all that.

i just don't know what to do anymore. My life seems to have no point. i know i need to take care of Kaleb and make sure he grows up right and such but for myself i don't know anymore. Oh well. i have more to say but a lot of people would take it wrong, so i'm done for a while. Take care.

Always,

 kitti aka Raveness